TOPIC: Upcoming surgery

I will have the first of potentially five surgeries this Friday. The goal is to raise the indentation to the same level as the rest of the skin. The doctor will use derma matrix and a small skin graft over it. Will wait till that heals and repeat Until it gets to the same level.
I am pretty nervous about it given the results of the last surgery that was supposed to be easy. This doctor is a different doctor and I interviewed multiple doctors, including the ones y’all suggested, and this one made the most sense. If this doesn’t work, I can always deploy it which was the solution of the other four doctors. Once that’s done there’s nothing else that can be done to make it different/better. So at least I have one option before that. I’m posting a couple of pictures so y’all can see before and after. These are the before. Soft and hard.

I’d considered just leaving it and then I did an experiment. I posted the pictures on a hook up site after I made contact with multiple guys 15 to be exact. Three said no way that they would touch it. The other 12 said it wouldn’t bother them and then wondered what happened to it. Then it came down to "come on over. .." And suddenly all 12 of them either ghosted me, blocked me, or we’re kind enough to say actually it would bother me. So 100% rejection rate out of 15 people. That helped me make my decision about the surgery.
It’ll happen Friday morning, he said I should be able to go to work on Monday. I just sit… I’m at Therapist. And if it’s still painful, which I doubt given the Loss of sensitivity that I have and the other didn’t hurt either and it was awful. I think I’ll be fine. I don’t want to jeopardize the graft though so I can do sessions from home virtually sans pants...

these pictures were taken last week

I’m an atheist but feel free to send thoughts and prayers HA HA

Good luck! Date of procedure?

It's this friday (7/11) at 7 am. So ready to be done.

Hey good luck tomorrow. I was just going to mention this user had a good experience at this clinic but it's a bit far in Korea: phalloboards.info/forum/progress-reports...a-proud-urology.html

They specialize in those Megaderm grafts though. There was also a video where they explain the procedure and how they cut the graft to size.

Thank you! I’ll check it out.

Well how did it go today? What did doctor end up doing for u? Did it go as planned?

The doctor said it went really well. He called me afterwards and explained it more and said that he basically dug out 1 cm deep and 4 cm wide all the way around and put the Alloderm in and thinks it looks like a good hold and it’s wrapped. I’ll go in Tuesday to have the wrap taken off and he’ll look at it.
very painful this time. The disastrous surgery back in January looked so much worse, but almost no pain at first. I got lots of pain meds in the hospital and I’m now at home resting.

Looking forward to results. Best of luck remember, Alloderm or Belladerm are essentially grafts. They need to stay in place and they need to stay clean.

Happy healing! Crossing my fingers for a more smooth , consistent look

Double on the good wishes.

I’m including a couple of pictures from today before I re-wrapped it. Hopefully the graph is taking. Still can’t really wash it except to let water touch it but no rubbing or soap. I will see the positions assistant on Monday. I sent the pictures to the dock and he’s said it looks good.

Well, it looks pretty beat up, but u literally had it done a week ago. You have a ton of swelling which needs to come down and should over time. Did the doc cover the dermal matrix with grafted skin, or did he just leave it uncovered? Is his goal to beef up the indented spot so it’s level with the other areas?

You have to remember, no two reconstruction cases are exactly the same. Outcomes vary and are unpredictable. Keep things clean and dry, take antibiotics if prescribed, have pts.

The goal is to add five layers of the Alloderm and then after it’s at the level of the rest of the skin, to do a skin graft over the area. As far as swelling, that’s how it is. There’s some leftover filler that the previous doctor was not able to remove. It’s not swelling.
Interestingly, this “surgery “which was really just a wound/scar Revision has hurt more than the disaster in January where I was mutilated. I had multiple skin punctures as well as loss of skin, etc. I believe it was a lot of nerve damage that has been healing the last six months which I’m grateful for. Even before this, it looked bad soft and went hard, the indentation part was the only thing that looked horrible and was getting rejections for. Some of the lumpiness that you see is swelling flatten out when it’s hard.
This doctor has been really good about setting expectations and has been really sympathetic. Dr Hudak at UT. Southwestern in Fort Worth has also been very upfront and sympathetic, so if anyone needs a penile reconstructive surgeon in the Fort Worth area, he’s trained by Dr. Morey, who is considered one of the best in this part of the country. He’s basically the same level as Dr Carney. I forget the connection, but I believe they had some similar training from the same program, etc..
I would’ve happily gone to him, but he only does degloving. My current doctor is the only one who suggested this approach. I may end up with degloving, but I wanted to try something before that given there’s nothing left after a deep loving to do and the potential Loss of up to 30% of my size from degloving, as well as still being deformed looking.
This has honestly been the worst experience in my life and I don’t know how I’ve survived it other than support from you and others my close friends. I can’t imagine surviving another disaster like this so I’m hopeful that nothing else goes wrong.

U will survive. Life throws us some crazy stuff. We accept, adapt, and evolve. Only option we have.

I think it’s different and I’m making an assumption here for gay men over straight man. The gay community is very sex focused very Dick focused, and to go from having an amazing one that I try to improve on which was stupid to having a deformity and a 100% rejection rate at this point over 25 people… Is pretty devastating
I’m not in a relationship nor do I really want one so I enjoy and value my casual encounters and casual relationships but those have disappeared. Because of this.