TOPIC: Taking the PMMA plunge

Ok, this is starting to feel like a soap opera, but as I have posted so much emotional spewing on this topic, I felt the need to elaborate a bit more, as I know a thread like this describing a significant other leaving over a penis enhancement procedure would give guys a lot to be nervous about. Well, in the parlance of our times, to quote the big lebowski, new shit has come to light dude. Well here goes. My ex and are we attempting to purposefully have a baby, planning our marriage, picking out rings, and planning on moving her and her two children into my house on the day before I left for Tijuana. When I arrived back on Sunday, things suddenly went awry and by Tuesday it was over completely. Well, it turns out by the following Sunday she was already posting facebook pictures in the company of the ex boyfriend she constantly talked about. Now, I don't know about you, but my feeling is, to go from I want to get married and have your baby to I'm dumping you and screwing my ex boyfriend in less than a week, is how shall we say, not representative of a sensitive loving female. I think there were a lot of problems and PE, though it probably got on her nerves and turned her off a bit, was not the main issue. I think I just picked a broken woman.

I say this now about my new penis that I so lamented: every one of the women I have slept with since getting PMMA, including the one who tried the before version and after version, calls me every day to see when we're getting together again. The reviews are in folks, and the ladies like it. Flat out, my friend who tried it before and after endorsed a second round without hesitation and said, "it's amazing."

Ok, I'm done posting about the ex, I just felt the need to clear that up.

I may have been dealing with issues of loss, but what I don't deal with anymore are issues of size. That problem is handled. Thanks Dr. C, Wade, Mel and Christian!

Dance With Dragons wrote: I think I just picked a broken woman.

Sounds about right. Pack your bags and move on.

Every single time a woman says she is breaking up with her BF or Husband for a certain reason, it is never true...It is almost always a multiple of reasons, but she will choose the reason that hurts the man the most. My Ex told me I had a big Dick long time ago and that I satisfied her like no other man had (before I had any PE), when we divorced, she told me I had a small Dick and she was never happy with my Dick....I told her: Bitch, make your F...ing mind up and stick with it like the bitch that you are....women are wired emotionally, and that is the way it is, we just have to be aware of it and deal with it accordingly....

great results there brother,
just try to remember good thoughts,
you will get thru this,
pump as much pussy as u need to,
u will find one again that u want to keep and give your ,
but until then enjoy your new weapon

Well here it is day 21. All measurements holding steady, 5 3/8" MSEG, that's a 1 Inch gain from one
Procedure. Not too shabby, although it could still change. A note on Flaccid hang: my Flaccid used to be about 3.25-3.5", now it is always at least 5 inches. I like it quite so indeed. Also, I had the most brutal violent ridiculous sex for well over two hours the other night, and I know some serious pressure was out on my unit, she squeezed so hard it literally just ached, and... No post sex swelling. This is very positive I think, as we have been discussing on various threads the dangers of this post coital swelling. Big John said this stopped happening to him within 6 months post op, and I'm reporting that mine has stopped at 21 days. Good news I think.

I'll keep you posted. Session two in three weeks!

Hey buddy, how's it going?

Day 31

Nothing new to report physically. Everything is the same. No new ridges or imperfections, size is stable. Overall gain has been 1 Inch, tapered in all areas. There is still a gap on the sides and underside at the bottom of the shaft, but other than that, everything is perfect. I met a new woman and we tried it out last night. Excellent results, overall I am happy. I'm looking forward to heading back to Tijuana next week, and getting to my desired Girth of 6 inches. I don't really know if the extra size makes a difference or not at this point, but I don't really care. I don't worry about being inadequate anymore, and that's pretty great. Now I can focus on making myself a CEO and getting a private jet.

A wise man named EQStudent once said, will it ever be enough? The answer is, no it won't. Will it make you happy? No it won't. Does it really matter to women? I just don't know, women are a mystery and always will be. Did it improve my self esteem? Yes, it did. A lot. So there you. A bigger penis as a sex enhancer, maybe. A self esteem enhancer, definitely. For a total cost of around 7,000 (three rounds with airfare and hotel) bucks and possibly a fianc'e that wasn't that into me anyway, I'll say it's probably worth it if nothing major goes wrong long term.

Is it possible I'm just feeling blah today? Yep.

I'll try to be manic next time I post

DWD, your updates (and thehulks) are the best. Much appreciated. IMO - Its worth every penny just for the self esteem enhancement...sexual satisfaction is just the icing on the cake.

Day 35

No change in my unit, I'm calling it stabilized at this point. Ready for round 2 to fix the gaps and round out at 6" MSEG, then I'm done.

Great news, it's looking like I have a new gf shaping up. Strangely enough, I'd been out with her 5 times, but I was still moping about my ex. Last night we're waiting for a table and it hit me: this woman likes me a lot, is absolutely wonderful to me, and she is prettier than my ex, and as I looked at her, it rushed over me, and I knew my ability to feel for a woman was not destroyed. Not at all. I'm a hopeless romantic, what can I say.
Oh, she paid for dinner btw.

When we did it, she uttered, "you're so big." ***although I enjoyed hearing this, I'm pretty sure it was just ego stroking an theatre. Fun though

She is a big fan of my enhancement and to quote her, "no one would leave you because of this." **** reading this I realized how it sounded. We had been talking about my ex fianc' leaving me because I had a Girth enhancement. What she was actully saying was, no one would leave you over having your penis enhanced, she left you for other reasons and blamed your enhancement. She was saying this because she knows I'm extremely sensitive about having had this done because getting dumped over it left me an extremely deep scar of sadness and despair (that doesn't come close to describing it -maybe intense depression is closer to reality).

I live a strange wonderful life.

Next week, Tijuana!

Dance With Dragons wrote: Day 35 No change in my unit, I'm calling it stabilized at this point. Ready for round 2 to fix the gaps and round out at 6" MSEG, then I'm done. Great news, it's looking like I have a new gf shaping up. Strangely enough, I'd been out with her 5 times, but I was still moping about my ex. Last night we're waiting for a table and it hit me: this woman likes me a lot, is absolutely wonderful to me, and she is prettier than my ex, and as I looked at her, it rushed over me, and I knew my ability to feel for a woman was not destroyed. Not at all. I'm a hopeless romantic, what can I say. Oh, she paid for dinner btw. When we did it, she uttered, "you're so big." She is a big fan of enhancement and to quote her, "no one would leave you because of this." I live a strange wonderful life. Next week, Tijuana!

Yet there seems to be an incredible amount of guys on this forum that separate from wives or long term GF's post procedure.

I've got to ask, is that quote even real? I don't want to sound like a complete Dick or insult you, but it sounds completely made up.

Yeah, on reflection that was worded incorrectly.. She might just be kissing my ass. I get that.

The full quote: "No one would leave you because of that, she was jut looking for an excuse."

I have been very clear and forthcoming about being left by my ex fianc' because I had this procedure done. I have done so publicly. I have described my intense fear following the process, my deep regrets, and my severe emotional pain an trauma that followed my trip to Tijuana. If I also express the positive aspects, it is because I am conveying my genuine experience here. That is literally all I can do.

To add even more counterweight, I will convey another factoid: I am extremely nervous about the long term implications of having had PMMA injections. I am so concerned that I don't like to look at articles about FBGs and other complications right now. I realize this procedure is extremely dangerous, but as I have already taken the plunge, I instead watch my unit every day, looking for any signs of problems, and I hope and pray everything works out. I work hard to stay positive, because this cant be removed, to the best of anyone's knowledge, or to remove it at the very least would be even more experimental and dangerous than having the procedure done. I have tried my best to directly in private messages dissuade others from undergoing this procedure, and I state this here in plain terms: you are putting your life and your penis at great risk by Gavin this procedure done. There is no going back and no one has a clue what this will lead to. You may well lose your spouse or girlfriend as a direct result, and at a minimum you may no longer have the ability to have a woman have sex with you without knowing you have had something done, this revealing one of, if not your greatest insecurities.

Insecurity is probably the big reason my ex left me. Not because I had a procedure done, but because I was so insecure before I had it done I had completely turned her off. All speculation, maybe it was because she thought I was insane and not reliable as a husband since I was crazy enough to go to Mexico and let them inject shit into my penis. Maybe it was because it was too big. Maybe it turned her off. Maybe he thought I was less of a man. Maybe she thought I was a completely weak pos with no masculine qualities at all and having the procedure done just drove all of that home. Or maybe she "was just looking for an excuse."

I relate my real and genuine experience on this board, including my real life story and emotions. It is not something everyone does, and I do so both for the benefit of others and myself, as I find this therapeutic.
If this is a problem, moderators please let me know via PM.

Thanks.

If your honesty is a problem for anyone I'm out of here. On the contrary it is much appreciated.

Often times, the true reality of things is not provided to others. I've always thought it is either because: a.)people are selfish b.) people are dumb or c.)it is meant to be that way so someone can make money/time/save effort off of you without spoiling your expectations(because there are no expectations). I respect the time you take to reveal the reality of the procedure both mental and physical. I don't care how hardened or manly any man claims to be: I'm sure this procedure places a big mental burden on any man and I'm sure every man who has gotten it done can relate to your posts. I'm on the fence about getting PMMA. Im lucky to have some years to wait and still be young. Please keep updating to the extent you have been. Also, hows the swelling post sex going? Any improvement? Thanks for posting...

Post sex swelling has stopped altogether, and I don't have any pain at all anymore. I was worried for a while that the skin would be so tight that I wouldn't be able to have any give in the skin along the shaft, that without lube it would just chafe instead of the skin sliding back and forth like a normal penis, but the skin has returned to being loose over the last two weeks. I will say this, the PMMA is extremely palpable in the Flaccid state. There is no way around it, some of the ridges are almost visibly noticeable, almost. Overall though, aesthetically it looks great Flaccid or hard, is extremely functional, and one of my favorite activities now is standing around naked when a woman is around (at my house of course). Huge confidence boost.

Swelling after sex is no longer an issue at all for me anymore, hopefully the guys having problems with this get past it also with time.

That sounds great. I hope it continues to go well for you. I've always had trouble being naked in front of women. I think the loss of that anxiety would be one of the best things for me. I can be a very outgoing guy with the ladies when I have my clothes on(a lot of women love the stuff I say and the way I joke) and I wish the same could be said with the clothes off.