TOPIC: Memoirs of a Small Penis..

*MOD: Please move to correct forum if need be. I think this would be the right one though..*
After lurking around and reading the experiences that you have gone through, I feel that maybe I shouldn't be scared to share my own...
Growing up, I was an avid church participant. By the time I was in the 8th grade, I was already the youth praise leader and taught my own bible study class. I also attended church 3-4 evenings and 6 mornings a week. If you haven't guess by now, I had decided at an early age that I would be 'saving myself' for the right person.Over the next couple years, I turned down quite a few hotties because I thought it was the right thing to do. Its actually quite surprising as I wasn't blessed with good looks, a nice body, or even a middle class family. I eventually became the straight guy that treated girls with so much respect that I had dozens of girls sleep over in my bed and not once did I try ANYTHING ever. However all the homies just assumed I was some 'pimp' because girls would never make a fuss when hopping in the same bed with me regardless of how sober/drunk/high they were.Then beginning of junior year, my nonexistent sex life took a sharp turn towards '40 Year Old Virgin' status when I developed a weird lump on my Balls. Had a doctor check it out and he believed at the time that it might possibly be some sort of testicular cancer. He basically handed me a bottle of pills and told me to continuously monitor and come back regularly. This obviously is frightening news to any male, regardless of age. However by that time in my life, I was living on my own already and had no one to talk to. I made the mistake of confiding in a couple of the homies about my dilemma after swearing them to secrecy. It was actually almost funny how I had met up with the doctor during a lunch time appointment to find out nothing was wrong. I was walking on cloud 9 as I returned to school and ran into 5-6 popular hot girls that I was friends with. Then horror struck like a hot knife into the chest as one of them walks up to me and tells me that she/they heard about my 'problem'. When I casually asked what she was talking about, she glanced down at my crotch and said,'ya know..'. Then the rest of the girls all offer their condolences and believe my statement that I had just received a clean bill of health as nothing more than denial.I slowly stopped Hanging out with pretty much everyone from that circle of friends and sought out new ones. By this time in my life, I was a little worried about lack of technique as everyone I knew had been having sex for years while I was just starting to open up to the idea. By then my very limited knowledge/experience I had was from what I heard from other guys and the 1 or 2 pornos I had seen. The girls I started Hanging out with weren't sluts as they were very loyal to their boyfriends but man they sure loved to talk about sex and penis size. From those conversations, I figured that the ideal penis size was somewhere between 6-8 inches. Too bad that left me a bit short (little pun intended) at 4 inches..This new insight that I might not only be lacking in experience/skill but also the 'proper equipment' was definitely not something that helped build confidence. I told myself that size wasn't THAT important and being a good mate would be more important in getting a quality chick. I focused on work and my car (like to modify cars as a hobby) for years. Over the last couple years, I tried DHT and some 'namebrand' pills along with manual exercises. The only one that MIGHT have possible done anything was the pills as I started being able to measure to 4.25 - 4.5. Well now I'm not too far from 30, still have a small Dick, very little experience and pretty negative ones at that. I haven't gone into detail but if you guys want, I can post up some of my 'stories/experiences'. I guess I feel a little better knowing that I'm not the only one. Though some of you apparently haven't had it as bad as others.. *cough*SizeMic*cough* kidding.. kind of. lol.Sorry if this was long.. It was planned to be a short intro but once I got typing, it felt good opening up what had been a dark nightmare for so long. I'm definitely interested in the PMMA route. Had a couple questions I was hoping to get answered. I'll leave that for another time though. Thanks for taking the time to read this and have a nice day.

Welcome aboard boost, interesting story. Every man is the making of a good story: but what makes every man different is how he responds to the challenges he was given in life & makes use of his energies by never giving up. Becoming a member is the first personal step to making some of those personal changes you want, you'll see. Enjoy the support and new friendship that come from this forum. You'll meet many good people from all over the world who want to satify and feel fully content in their PE endeavors!

About the early tid-bit in your story, those missed chances were simply missed chances, that was the past & your not going to let that happen again. Man up as 1 of my best friends puts it. Sometimes you have to "nut up or shut up" as Woody Allen says in from the movie Zombieland. As cynical as it sounds, you put your needs first boost and you won't feel gulity anymore. I know thats not the conventional judeo-christian thinking you were brought up upon, trust me i know. Watch a couple of hardcore western flicks with gregory peck or audie murphy or Charles Bronson, or some Bonanza. Their character identities didn't live for some religious undertone, sometimes that undertone holds back a man from finding out who he really is in life and he misses out on developing much sooner that tough snakeskin we all need in todays society. i know i'm preaching to a much wiser choir, but i suspect its never too old or late to start the journey of self discovery. From that journey i promise you, you'll gain life saving confidence, confidence that decent women admire not sluts. Listen, most folks love life isn't some straight and narrow path, its pretty messed up, you bang alot of drunk bar girls and pretty escorts. The word jaded is a cop out for a lazy persons lack of interest for self discovery. The prodigal son got fed up desireing what the pigs were eating, thats self discovery. god, a better love life, hell maybe even enhancing your penis will make this path to self discovery all the more worth it. In short, welcome aboard buddy!



~Coolhandluke

Hi Boost,
Welcome to the forum. You'll find quite a bit of information here, and I wish you good luck. Feel free to ask questions, and I urge you to do as much as research as possible before committing to a procedure, if indeed that is the route you decide to take.
Skatezy

Thanks for the welcome, guys.I have read the the entire 120+ page thread on the old forum which lead me to here. Ironically I found the old forum by trying to research the Elist Implant. Reading around and following the experiences that other members are posting have given me enough confidence to seriously consider this as an option.Current Stats: (rough measurements)4.5 EL
4.5 EG (glans)
4.5 EG (mid)
4.1 EG (base)

My plans are to start working out again and take a break from smoking. Been a obese bunny for a little too long now. I fear that getting PMMA done now and losing weight (aka fat around pelvic area) might leave me with a weird penis. Also I want to see if I can SOMEHOW get the EL to increase a bit as I don't want to really end with a 'Chode'. Honestly for me the only thing that SEEMED to net me ANY type of results was enhancement pills. It could of just been my hopeful imagination though..
Plan on getting 3 operations. First two for Girth increase and the final one for asthetic purposes. I believe/hope that should net me close to the 6 EG range. Would also like to go for the tapered look that seems to be so popular on here. Couple questions for those who already had it done..How tight was the skin around your penis prior to PMMA?How tight does the skin feel now post PMMA?

Thanks for the story boost.. your a inspiration... I too had found that my penis size have stood in the way of my sex life... we are all here to improve on what mother nature gave us.

@Coolhandluke
Liked your story and its boat load of wisdom. Cheers.

@Boost
You're not nearly as alone as you imagine, we all had various ways in which we managed our hardship. Mine was turning tyring to reverse fate and turning myself into something of a man-whore, with such stamina and duration that their girlfriends would try to steal me away to get this boy toy into their bed... despite size with some of them shedding tears at my refusal to betray their friend and my girlfriend, although never having ever slept with me and knowing quite well that I'm a below average 5 by 4 and somewhat misshapen. Size definitely isn't everything, but I must agree that it isn't at all entirely irrelevant either. And today there's a younger generation weened on porn movies and dirty sex talk where a man is his penis - which is fairly stupid when you get around to thinking about it. Was JFK the dude because he packed a 9 incher? Heck he could have had a micropenis and gotten laid + venerated my almost all womanhood.
You're like most of us, the issue isn't your penis size or shape even if it isn't what you'd want, it is having been afflicted by nature with something you would rather not have and finding oneself helpless in that situation. This is where Phalloplasty can bring a response, and I'm starting to learn at my own expense that it isn't simple or easy to find one's path and not make some silly mistakes. I'd suggest you take it slow and not precipitate anything, exploring various possibilities. You're quite fortunate to have a fairly large glans because that's the one thing that tends to make things disproportionate when adding Girth more than length.
Cheers and welcome to your new adventure which will help you go on with your life in more important ways.
HC

Sorry I left this on the back burner for so long.. I've been busy with work so haven't had as much time on the boards.So after quite a long dry spell, I finally got intimate with someone. I'm not going to lie.. I was nervous. She seemed to be appreciating the attention I was paying to her body and seemed especially pleased when I was using my fingers to manipulate her G spot. Found out she was a squirter and got a big confidence boost when she told me, 'You definately knew what you were doing.' Then my fear slowly started to creep back onto me as she put on a condom and hopped on top. It was what I would consider a loose fit.. She didn't seem to be enjoying herself anywhere near as much with my penis. She even hopped off and begged me to use my mouth and fingers again. That officially killed whatever new confidence I had as apparently she didn't feel my Dick was adequite. And since she was on top, she had the control of the motions. Anyways.. All this got me thinking back to doing something about my size (or lack of). I emailed Wade/Dr. C. and am awaiting their response. Hoping they can squeeze me in before the year is over. Any tips for a first timer traveling to TJ solo? Thanks for your time. Happy Holidays.

I plan on using the shuttle service provided by Dr. C. I have been known to pull Macgyver type moves when necessary. ;[p I know some spanish but not enough to consider myself fluent except in the bad words. I'm planning on getting a room in SD even though I live in LA. With my appointment time being at 1pm, I don't want to sit in traffic for 5 hours to get back home. Figure I'll just chill in a room and monitor until traffic dies down then drive home in an hour or so. Any other tips/suggestions? (Regardless of travel, supplements, clothes, etc)

I'll be heading down to SD tonight after work.

Appointment is at 1pm.

Wish me luck.

Good luck!!!!

Good luck Boost, the women are awaiting your penis when you get back.

Thanks guys.

I just arrived not too long ago into SD and checked into my hotel.

Lucky me somehow got a free upgrade from a regular room to a suite. Hope this is a sign from the PMMA gods that I have their blessing. ;[p

A little too excited/worried to sleep. Just hopes all goes well tomorrow.

A Suite upgrade? NICE - all the more comfy when catering to your unit post-procedure.
Good luck!

Haha yeah.. thanks SO.

Figure since my appointment is at 1pm, ill be getting back into sd at rush hour traffic time. Plan to keep an eye on things til traffic is clear and go home at night time when traffic is nonexistent/minimal. I live in LA fyi.

Anything I need other than passport, hotel key and money? Don't want to bring too much stuff but don't want to forget anything either.

boost wrote: Anything I need other than passport, hotel key and money? Don't want to bring too much stuff but don't want to forget anything either.

I believe that's about it.