TOPIC: Why Do YOU Seek PE?

Growing up I was always that nice / shy blonde hair blue eyed boy that all the girls had secret crushes on; but due to my Christian upbringing, general kind heartedness and nice moral behaviour I never really paid much attention to it. Everyone likely grew up with a kid like this in your class. A cute boy that girls crushed on that was too shy / nice to "date around" with them. At least in the early years.

This mentality lead me to not really "date" anyone until I was around 15 years old. During this time we waited 10 months to have sex and I had sex for the first time when I was 16. I was around 6" x 4.5" at the time. Of course waiting so long we had it built up hope it would be absolutely amazing... it wasn't.

When I first put it in... no real reaction from her. She actually said "Is it in yet?". I mean... she was a virgin! She didn't even feel it sliding into her at first? Of course after a few seconds she started complaining about it hurting and she bled a little bit. But the damage had been done to my confidence.

After that I started searching the internet and I found Thundersplace. This actually made things worse for me because I read about the "average" size and I realized that although my length was average... my Girth was below average. I mean I know that 6" x 4.5" is by no means small. Just the thought that the average guy out there is bigger than me really bothered me.

That lead me down a ~5 year path of manual PE. I did a lot of Jelqing, Clamping, Hanging, pumping and ADS work. I only really stared posting at thundersplace after I got my vacADS from autoextender.com.

After all the years of hard work I measured out at ~7.5" x 4.5". I was very very dedicated to manual PE and I had a very postive outlook on it and an open mind which I think helped. If you don't think something will working when you start it, it probably wont work for you. Also it is important to note that I was 17 when I started PE, some of my "gains" could very well have been puberty.

Naturally, after 5 years of hard and dedicated work and no Girth gains, I got very frustrated. I searched around the net for options and ruled everything out because of the price and general unpredictable outcomes. That was until I found PhalloBoards and stumbled upon PMMA. Everything I saw and read just made me believe that this was the answer I was looking for.

That brings me to here. One bad comment lead to 5 years of obsession and a Girth enhancement procedure.

I forgot to add that my experiences with REGULAR size condoms slipping off in sex definitely had a significant impact on my pursuit of PE.

@S.O.
I had that a few times! For me it was only really one brand / style that did it to me... but I had a whole box of 12 of them... it happened 3 times and I finally just threw out the box in frustration. I know my starting Girth was the smaller end of "average" which isn't terrible but, trust me, I know the feeling...

Hello, I just joined because its nice to know I'm not the only one that has dealt with this problem. I can relate to each and everyone of you. I haven't had it as bad as most of y'all but I am very bothered by it. I had a comments made by a few girls but it never really bothered me until now. It may be because I looked at it as, I got what I needed and to hell with you but the fact of the matter it seemed to me was they all wanted more. As of a month ago I had rotator cuff surgery that took seven pieces of hardware to put it back together. I also have a tear in my other shoulder that will need attention in the near future. I guess what I'm getting at is that with all this going on I feel worthless. The bad part is my size issue is driving me crazy. It should be the last thing on my mind but I feel once this is fixed I'd be much better off. Am I wrong for thinking this? I feel like I'm going crazy because of it. I'm really interested in doing the PMMA and so far I've seen the ones who've had it have had good results. I know its a fairly new thing and I'm willing to do it no matter what. Should I be thinking like this or do I just need to get a grasp of what's going on in my head? I'm just looking for some guidance and help to make the right decision. Its nice just being able to vent "so to speak" to people who understand what this does to someone. Sorry if this doesn't belong here but I didn't know where else to put it. Thanks for any input.

Mike, how long did it take you to gain 0.5inches with pumping?

New1inch wrote: @ scepticalone they have snugger fitting condoms out there. I use Crown Skinless Skin codoms... their AMAZING!! and once you get going you can barley feel its there.

There are, but thank goodness I no longer have to use them. I'm over 6 weeks post-op from my Girth procedure and can now comfortably use Regular condoms now woohoo!

@Justabitmore
FFT sounds good if you don't mind the fact that it tends to resorb over time more than PMMA and that its collagen formation might be slightly less resilient? I guess like any procedure it all boils down to the doctor's skill and the patients configuration and response to the techniques used.
For others here I haven't had issues with my size at least overtly when it came to women. However I know indirectly - call it intuition as you may - that I have lost at least a few to men who were better endowed while they had neither charm or charisma nor better looks or social status, just some strange reason that lured them away. I took the hint by the words and actions when they left me although I wasn't a slacker when it came to sleepless nights of constant attention.
However I recently renewed with a former girlfriend from my youth and she noted my complaints about that young girl I'm hooked on who tends to go for ethnic types usually of African origins. She said it's a myth that black men have larger shlongs, something which sounded like she had had plenty of time to check out for herself. She is a woman of experience and always had a flock of suitors waiting in line. Her looks, character and incredible personality gave her the pick of any man in town. If anyone knows she does.
But she did read into my comments and from the bitter way I expressed them noted that it wasn't as simple as all that. We were teenagers together both in love and those were days one remained a virgin at an age such as that. We had what I can only call sex by kissing so erotically that for neither of us nothing has since ever matched this. Yet no sexual contact. When we were 25 we got together again but I was having a hard time recovering from the loss of the love of my life and she pretended she had herself another man she loved.... out of spite. We even spent a night in bed but she wouldn't make love, so we just laid there together talking and hugging until we finally passed out.
Last week we found out we were both for the first time since that both in town, and got together two days before I was on my way to see Dr C. We had dinner both remaining evenings but agreed to postpone more serious aspects of the encounter until I return in September... and she said regarding my earlier comments "If I understand from your comments earlier you are quite small?" I said that we shouldn't exxagerate or jump to conclusions but was taken aback by her frankness which I think was to get this out of the way. She also called my convertible sports car my "man's penis" which is a way of implying I must be compensating as she says most men do with their penile hangups.
So I don't know if she thinks guys are dumb to be so Dick focused or whether having had her pick of so many has her own needs and requirements which make her jostle me thus. Possibly she is exacting revenge at my earlier infliction on her of my devotion to that other woman who had dumped me, when she herself had stronger feelings for me than she cared to reveal. After all I was broke and depressed and she'd take me out to dinner all the time.
In any case this is a very unusual situation burdened with decades of curiosity and expectations, and I do hope that although I made no Girth requests of Dr C that I will be at least enhanced enough to please a woman of discriminating taste and vast sexual experience. My favorite result will be that she moves on to another topic, such as how great it is to be together at last, with that penile organ taking a back seat to other aspects of a fulfilling relationship...
HC

SO how long have you researched PE?

I always knew that my penis was small when compared to the other guys in the locker room. My insecurities about my size really started when I had to go shower in the dreaded locker room in high school. It didn't help that I have a cousin that could give most porn stars a run for their money either.

Still I didn't really let that slow me down too much chasing women and having sex when I was younger. I somewhat compensated by refining my oral techniques.

The worst day for me was when I was in the Navy (many years ago) and ended up in a whore house in Malaysia. Not surprising if you've been around Navy guys. The girl I was with started giggling when I got undressed and told me I was "small like Chinese". That pretty much crushed my ego at that point.

When I got back from that cruise, I started looking at options. I ended up ordering a pump from Kaplan right after he started selling them. There wasn't much else out there at the time. I tried pumping on and off for a few years but never saw any real results.

Since then I took the attitude that I would live with what I have and focus on technique. That helped things as I learned how to please women, but my size has always been in the back of my mind no matter what. I ended up meeting my wife while in college and obviously things haven't been bad, but a couple of years ago my size started bothering me yet again. I bought another pump, a Bathmate, and started researching what surgical operations where out there. I eventually bought a Andros extender a few months after the pump and used that for several months. I did see some gains in length (about 3/8 of an Inch) from using the extender, but the noose system got to be so painful that I gave up on it after awhile and started looking at surgical options again.

My search led me to the PhalloBoards eventually and has really opened up the range of what I thought was possible. I have been doing PE exercises and using DHT cream and have seen some real gains due to it. I still want more though. I now have a 5 Inch Erect penis, still not a lot, but it is a lot more than I started with. I see PMMA being in my future as a happy new year present to myself, but I will continue with the lengthening exercises for quite some time until they come out with the majic penis grow pill.

HunkChunk wrote: @New1inch
Girth is what they want, length only modifies the impression of thrust, which can be easily compensated by pacing or well inspired rhythmic shifts. Even Girth can be compensated to an extent if you can overwhelm them in other ways so that they wind up contracting madly against you. It does work even if only in special circumstances where all the parameters are right from sentiment and romance to physical arousal and blazing sensation. Length is mostly for a "totem" virtue of the Phallus symbol which some girls tend to venerate (and even some guys on PE forums lol) while Girth has a far more practical purpose of easily providing that stretch of pleasure which is harder to reach without such means. FWIW
HC

Hey thanks..

My story continued, ( sorry about the format and run-on sentances. So many thoughts I'm just trying to summarize)

She moved out and I felt good about it. Like I avoided a relationship blow out that would haunt me for years. I was Hanging out at a friends house and he mentioned that my x had contacted him. I tried to change the subject and play it cool but this fucker wouldent stop. He started asking, do you think she cheated on you? To witch I replied I don't care. He continued... " I think she wanted to break up with you for a while". I still played it smooth. " she called brian to hang out at her new place" frustration and anger kicked in.... Why the fuck are you telling me this?!..... " thought you would want to know". I don't care man..." I just think the reason she broke up with you is interesting"....
I snapped on this little sob, almost broke his nose. I haven't been that mad at anything in my life. He never said the words, because I didn't let him. Needless to say I don't talk to him anymore, but I'm still reminded from time to time of this girl who attacked my biggest insecurity . I haven't been right since. With other girls I'm experiencing ED. I don't enjoy going out anymore. Life has become a sad existence, mundane at best. I can't shake it as hard as I try. I've overcome many obstacles in my life but this one is tuff. How do you change something that's out of your control? I get visions of this girl getting pounded by some huge stud and her having the time if her life all because he's well endowed. It makes me sick.
This site gives me hope, I'm excited and nervous to get this done but I feel it's well worth it.

Dd71 wrote: SO how long have you researched PE?

Many years for sure. Though the intensity of the research progressed with time.
What's your story Dd71 (if you are comfortable with sharing of course) ?

Hello everyone! finally made it over here.. I been seeking pe for a while because being african american I feel more pressured to measure up. And since I go after spanish and white women because of the media they expect you to pull out a second leg..lol.. and by god im gonna try hard to get there.